CELCOM SUCKS!

A LOT OF HAPPY THINGS HAPPENING. EPIC QUOTES.

BUT NOW IS NOT THE TIME.

I NEED TO FUCKING RANT ABOUT CELCOM!

THEY CLAIM THEY ARE THE FASTEST BROADBAND NETWORK.

THEY LIED!

IT IS TAKING ME MORE THAN 15 MINUTES TO ATTACH ONE NINTH OF A FILE.

AND IT IS MY PRESENTATION FOR TOMORROW.

THE ONLY TIME I HAD TO DO MY PRESENTATION SLIDES WERE AFTER 6 PM AND IT SHOULD HAVE TAKEN ME 10 - 15 MINUTES TO DO IT.

BUT BECAUSE OF THIS BROADNARROWBAND LIAR, I SPENT NINE FUCKING HOURS AT IT!

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO EMAIL IT OUT SINCE 6 SOMETHING!

SHIT. I AM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW. IT IS WORST BECAUSE IT IS THAT TIME OF THE FUCKING MONTH!

ARGH!? IT'S BEEN 15 MINUTES AND I'VE MANAGED TO ATTACH 1/9 OF THE FUCKING FILE???

OH. MY. GOD! WHY IS CELCOM SUCH BUTTFACE LIAR?

LATELY, I HADN'T BEEN RESTING ENOUGH AND HADN'T BEEN GETTING ENOUGH SLEEP. I PLANNED TO SLEEP AT MIDNIGHT TONIGHT AND WAKE UP AT 10 TOMORROW BUT AT THE FUCKING RATE I AM FUCKING GOING, IT WON'T HAPPEN. I WILL END UP FEELING RESTLESS AND TIRED!

I FUCKING HATE CELCOM!

I LOST MY PATIENCE. I LOST MY NICENESS AND TOLERANCE. CELCOM SHOULD RECONSIDER. THEY SHOULD JUST PROMOTE THEMSELVES AS THE SLOWEST BROADBAND SERVICE IN MALAYSIA!

NINE FUCKING HOURS SINCE I'VE TRIED ATTACHING ONE MISERABLE FILE!

FUCK! CELCOM SHOULD JUST STOP THEIR BROADBAND SERVICES.

THE REASON WHY I AM TYPING IN CAPS IS BECAUSE I AM FEELING SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW! AND I AM FEELING CRANKY AND TIRED BUT I HAVE TO SEND THIS FUCKING FILE BEFORE 6.30 AM SO MY TEAMMATE COULD JUST EDIT IT FOR ME AND THEN PROCESS THE SLIDES.

I HATE CELCOM. OFFICIALLY.

The other day, I thought, as long as I have the Internet, I will be fine but then tonight when I needed the fast connection the most, it bail on me. FUCK!

Celcom is NOT STUDENT FRIENDLY. They RUIN students. Because of their SUCKY CONNECTION, students cannot do research OR handing their presentation/assignments ON TIME.

How It Overpowers Me

When I reached home from classes, I slept. I was hungry but feeling lazy at the same time, so I slept. This week, as much as I looked forward to it, SUCKS. I am miserable, upset and angry. Trying to be strong though.

To the Girls and others, sorry I left without a word, I was really in a bad mood and thanks for cheering me up somehow.

Now, in my head, I want to go home. I desperately want to go home. I am tired. I hadn't been myself lately. I hadn't been all that happy with anything. At this rate, as much as I love going for classes, I feel like not going in for classes.

I hate being in this state where my mind isn't there. I am like a zombie except I don't crave for brain or not being able to show any emotions. The only thing I could do now is at least PRETEND to be happy when I know I am feeling pretty much down and disappointed and unhappy. This is the one hypocrital part about me. I have this stupid ability to lie to people that I am alright when I know I am not. I feel like crying it all out but I don't want Lai Yee to know. She's such a cheerful person. I don't want to bring any negative vibe into this house. Maybe, I will do it in the shower. Feeling pathetic.

When I woke up from sleep earlier on, I felt very woozy. It was like a faint spell casted over me.

I am done moping like this... I think. I may be hungry, broke and unhappy now, I think, I should take this as a challenge. Que sera sera then~ Hope tomorrow will be better than today. Hope tomorrow will bring good news for me... Or at least, some satisfaction. If not, I will have to wait till I get home to Kuching to see the ONE thing that could really cheer me up.

A little hand touching my face saying, "Ja...?"

I want to go home even more now, Mummy said NOT to think too much about her but how can't I when she is the one thing that could really make me laugh? In Computer Graphic's class today, I was overpower with the feeling on how much I truly miss Athena.

I think I should go now, I should refresh myself. I need to take a shower so I won't feel too woozy. Shit, I noticed today in Communication English, I was getting somewhat clumsy. I kept dropping things and make it look like as if NOTHING happened. I hate it when I am tired and hungry at the same time. I hate it.

Later. I hope. When I am less angsty.

Sleeplessness

Help. I cannot sleep. Bloody hell, this is going to put me in a damn bad mood.

It is bad enough I am so broke, I can't even survive this week!

At this rate, I hate the situation. I want to go home.

... My God, it's been a while since I felt this way. I hate staying up late. I get cranky. I hope tomorrow will be good for me. I hope I wake up early.

Somehow, I like being in this state, I tend to get... inspired. Hmm, but I am very tired. I am feeling so... well, upset about something even I can't tell what is it that make me feel so upset. Honestly, if I was in Kuching, only 4 people will notice the mood.. Here? I am not sure. No doubt, I found good friends in most of my classmates especially, Jane, Jeen, Joey and even Syafiq, for that matter.

But... there is a huge difference, this isn't my home. This is only my temporary home. It all comes down to one thing; I am homesick.

I miss Athena. I admit it. I miss Athena. I miss Nuril and Embok Fariah... I miss Mummy and Abah, too. Akim talks to me all the time, so I don't feel it all that much but I miss hugging him.

The worse is, I miss everything about the house in Middle Road. I miss the familiar faces in town. The familiar cars. Everywhere I went, I knew someone. At least one person. Don't mention Hopoh or Tun Jugah. I have friends there. Dedek had been teasing me about Sarawakian food. Owh, I miss the empty talks at Dedek's shop in Tun Jugah! Seriously.

Owh, I miss home.

Kuching, the city I was born in. I may have been to other cities and liked it but there is NO PLACE LIKE KUCHING! To me, the greatest place to be at is Kuching. Why? I was born and raised in Kuching. Kuching, though in the past I said I hated you but I now realised how much I miss you and how much I love you. I want to go home.

The warmth is all back in Kuching. Most of all, a little angel (faced devil) is growing up so big. I miss her. I miss everything about home.

CAN'T WAIT TO GET HOME. I will take LOTS of pictures of home to bring over here to KL. Hope... that will help with my homesickness :(

*sighs*