A Loyal Lover's Theme Song

Aku memang terlanjur mencintaimu
Takkan pernah ku sesali itu
Seluruh jiwa rela ku serahkan
Mengenang janji setiaku

Kumohon jangan jadikan semua ini
Alasan kau menyakitiku
Meskipun cintamu tak hanya untukku
Tapi cobalah sejenak mengerti

Reff:
Bila rasaku ini rasamu
Sanggupkah engkau menahan sakitnya
Terkhianati cinta yang kau jaga

Coba bayangkan kembali
Betapa hancurnya hati ini kasih
Semua telah terjadi

Back to Reff:

Aku memang terlanjur mencintaimu

I really like this song... It is called Bila Rasa Ku Ini Rasamu by Kerispatih. The video is nice. It makes me wonder... these Indonesian bands like to make nice tragic videos. Hehe!

This song has something meaningful for me. Owh well. Just sharing!

MEAN KITTY!!

I am a big fan of YouTube. And I got the news today that Sparta, the Mean Kitty is getting his own channel!!

Although it is fun to see Cory "Mr. Safety" Williams with Sparta (aka The Mean Kitty). I think that is it from me now.

Adeiu~

Arieanna!

This is Arieanna. She is 1 years 8 months old and I love her. Arieanna is a mini me. When I was her age, I have this habit of not letting go a certain dress I have my heart set on and I would wear it until it was dirty. Then, my parents will have to wash that dress in the morning just to get that dress dried in the evening for me to wear.

Anyway, this morning, Kak Lin called me and she said she had a story to tell me. Apparently, last night, Arieanna was minding her own business when she suddenly called, "Jaja, Jaja, Jaja..." Kak Lin was wondering why was she suddenly called out my name. So when Kak Lin approached her, in her hands was my photograph. She gave Kak Lin my photo and said, "Jaja..."

It is so sweet. I am glad, she is very attached to us. I am glad she recognise us.

In The Mood To Share (Videos)

ALL CRIED OUT - ALLURE & 112

KERANA CINTAMU - QUADROSE & V.E

I LOVE these songs. Really. It is the same tune. Lyrics are almost the same. The same heartbreak. I can relate some parts of my life with these songs.

I just don't want to think about it. I don't want to think too much about it. It might kill me. Eventually. It might kill me.

... I need to continue writing The Kill... Gosh...

I should stop here. I need sleep. Seriously.

Butterfly Kisses

You must be wondering why that is the title of my blog. Nothing to do with me being mushy today but from now on, I shall believe in LITERAL BUTTERFLY KISSES.

When there is a sign, God will send me a sign.

Miracles do happen.

Coincidence

Coincidence. Trust me. It was pure coincidence. I was out with my sisters one night when we went to Satok and that was the only empty parking space left. Unaware, until as I wanted to dumb my keys into my pocket, I looked down.

Just had to take a picture of it.

Owh well. Life is also a coincidence.

Perhaps. Another Thought Shared?

Another ungodly hour entry? Probably. Currently, I am rereading a book written by Dorothy Koomson. It is called My Best Friend's Girl. It is a wonderful book actually. When I first read it, I couldn't seem to put the book down. It is a beautiful story actually. If you are interested in reading it, lucky you, I am not going to spoil it for you. Unless you ARE interested, click on the book covers below, thanks.

So far, I've read two books by Dorothy Koomson.

and

I am curious about the other books. But nothing makes me wonder more about The Cupid Effect!

Also, on the fantasy side, I have the His Dark Materials Trilogy to deal with by Phillip Pullman.

Want to know a secret? I've finished the first two but I've not started on the last book. Not only I read these sort of books, I realised I like reading the adult books by Meg Cabot. Haha! I like the paranoia she express in her novel characters.

I especially love her BOY SERIES. It is not like those typical story books. It is different. Interesting kind of different.

I think I am done here for now. My head is getting heavy. I had every intention to read a book but I ended up blogging. It is pretty normal for me though. Half the time, I am bored online and I've got a feeling some asshole sabotaged my Friendster. Owh well. Go ahead. I don't care. I am not the immature person at the end of the day anyway.

I pretty much don't give a damn with what people say about me because I know who the hell I am. They don't. Perhaps, they are just jealous. That is why they talk. Let them be. As long as I don't care. I am fine. At least, I am not the one going after people's husbands or being the pot calling the kettle black.

Corrupted poor little world this is. Tsk tsk.

Also. I am yearning to keep a cat in the house. But... *sighs* a hell lot of reasons why I cannot keep a cat in the house. YET!

Rants + Other Things

I hate it when I have to tolerate people who think that they are perfect when they are not even near perfect. What I can't stand the most are people spitting into the air. Hello? Won't the spit land back onto your face?

It is weird on how people don't realised their faults and when they pretend like they are not wrong, it gets sickening. What is worst, they seem to look innocent but at the end of the day when the dirty truth is revealed, you would think innocence isn't in their dictionary. Goodness, why people like this exist? Are they desperate? If yes, for what? Why can't they just shut the hell up and stop bragging all together that other people is always on the wrong while they are on the right when in actual fact, it is the other way around?

This relates to the girl this afternoon and I call her Rihanna. No, not because I don't like Rihanna (which I do, really) but she thinks she is Rihanna. Oh. My. God. I had never in my life, meet a girl with no manners. I hated the way she respond to an older person. The way she answered back. It was rude. What does Ejah sees in that girl? She is a liar, a slanderer and a skank. Skank? How? Well, she is one who is willing to share boyfriends with other girls. Trust me, and boy is she good at making a relationship complicated.

What I am trying to say is, I cannot stand people like this... Not only she thinks she is perfect but she thinks she is pretty when the bitch (as in a dog) is way prettier than her. Ah. Forget about these sort of people. They don't deserved to be acknowledged.

See the picture above? I am craving for that. That is called ayam penyet (flatten chicken). What is in this ayam penyet? Basically, it is a type of chicken rice which hails from Indonesia :) As you notice, there is fried chicken thighs with vegetables (which we call ulam) which consist of:- daun ubi, cantek manis, cabbages and cucumber. Underneath it all, notice that red scary looking sauce? Aww, it is not that scary. It is sambal tumis. Caution: It is spicy. And on certain days, it is EXTRA spicy.

**The problem with spicy food is, when you think you want to stop eating it, you tend to want more... I find it intriguing!**

Call me an obsessed-much. I am not. I just love this dish. It is filling and I could last a day without other meal after this rather hearty meal! Wonder where I always eat ayam penyet? If you are from where I am from (Kuching, Sarawak), there is a place behind Ambank facing the Satok overhead bridge. Look for an orange shop called SATAY CEKO (something like that). Let me warn you, they are closed on MONDAYS. Also, it cost RM6. I would think that is cheap.

Ayam penyet, to my surprise is very popular in Singapore! But the differences are the Singaporeans include soup, cherry tomatos instead of cantek manis or daun ubi and the chicken is fried only with some crispy bits.

Damn. All this talking about food is making me hungry. I shall blog more when I have more to rant or blog about. I am very sleepy at the moment and it is not funny.

LYRICS:: Jack Off Jill » Strawberry Gashes

Turn her over
A candle is lit, I see through her
Blow it out and save all her ashes for me

Curse me sold her
The poison that runs it's course through her
Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all over

Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over

Called her over
and asked her if she was improving
She said "feels fine" it's wonderful wonderful here

Hex me told her
I dreamt of a devil that knew her
Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all over

Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over

I lay quiet
waiting for her voice to say
"Some things you lose and some things you just give away"

Scold me failed her
If only I'd held on tighter to her
Pale white skin that twisted and withered away from me away from me

Watch me lose her
It's almost like losing myself
Give her my soul
and let them take somebody else get away from me

Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over all over me

Ungodly Hour Thoughts

Still don't get it.

Why there are so many pots calling the kettle black? Seriously. People tend to think that they are perfect when they are not even near perfect. I don't think that I am perfect. I mean, seriously, I was perfect, I would have committed suicide like a thousand times!

I don't want to think about it. Right now. I am in the mood to laugh because it is proven that some people need other people's backup to actually cause some trouble. Oh well. They stand together.

I am feeling bored and seriously, I am feeling so mixed up it is not funny. I can feel my eyes getting heavy but I know, once I close them, it won't remain close! I think, I want to do some imagining! I am feeling rather wacky. Haha!

A Sony Vaio is thinking to itself, "she is falling asleep in front of me again... and guess what, she is halfway blogging and looking for things to download."

The Nokia 5300 replies, "At least she remembers to charge me!" Whereas the Nokia 6120 keeps quiet. Nearby, a plastic bag filled with dried papayas says, "she forgotten to twist me... luckily it is only dried papayas inside of me rather than crackers... or she will waste it... again!"

The girl woke up and squinted her eyes. "Oh, my downloading is still running..." as she clicked onto the website of her blog and published her post. She looked at her dried papayas and took a piece and placed it into her mouth. "I am getting sleepy now..." she yawned.

RANDOM-MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I intend to change my blogskin. I want to put some Liverpool touch to it but then, I am honestly lazy to do so.







WHAT THE HELL? LINDSAY LOHAN IS PREGNANT? No, I was fooled. Haha! Anyway, there was something I wanted to blog about and it is about me hating looking at the way people type words online.

I tinK oNLy rEtarDs haF dA aBiLitY tO tYpE liKe diS. i dUn nOe hOW dEy caN rEaD oR tYpe Like Diz! iT iz taKinG tOo mUch tiMe! i fiNd dIz verY aNnoYinG! tO rEad it iZ annoYiNg, wHat mOre tYpinG it anD waStiNg mOst oF mA tiMe! aNd tO tiNk daT dEy aRe VerY LaZY tO tYpe iN ProPeR EnGLiSh~ nOt oNLy i haTe tO sEe pEoPLe tyPe LiKe diZ, bUt i HaTe tO sEe deY sPeLL liKe diZ!!

GOD! I feel like a retard typing the above! Seriously, if you are going to spell this like DIZ, don't bother going to school to learn English. If someone were to sit for an Oxford or Cambridge exam, it will be an immediate fail. The essay may be good, but the spelling? Owh, NO! A BIG NO NO!

Oh God! Why does the Jonas Brothers look so gay in that picture on OMG! Yahoo!? I am in the mood to criticize actually.

Well, at least I don't behave like the world revolves only around me. I don't call the kettle black like some people. The world is just the way it is. If I don't like that person, I don't go around telling other people that I am much more perfect than them.

I hate to get the hiccups. It hurts. Really it does. And it is a bit annoying. What is with me this morning. It is already late. I am bound to wake up late tomorrow. OH GOD! And to think, I have to get out of the house at a certain time!

I think, I should try sleeping now.

Waiting

picture not by me...
POEM is by me...

Debate

Yes. Indeed it was, for me to drink Nescafe. I am feeling sleepy but I cannot sleep. Go figure. Anyway, when I was in the kitchen, I had the funniest imagination.

FIRST TRIP: Main intention was to make Milo... instead...

I went into the kitchen. Checked the electronic kettle if there was hot water. Yes. There was. So, when I took a cup for my drink. There I was debating with myself.

Milo or Nescafe

It was around 9 something.

"Oy, Ja, drink me, you know you want to!" cried out Nescafe. "With milk. Super sweet. You know you want to!"

"Yeah, Ja... you don't want me... You want Nescafe more than you want me. You can always drink me some other time!" cried Milo.

I stood in the middle of the kitchen. Thinking. Wondering. Trying to come up with a verdict for who I should drink. I reached for the Nescafe bottle and made myself, coffee. Yes. I drank coffee at night. Guess what, I am NOT sleepy although it was the lightest coffee I've ever made myself and it wasn't super sweet like how I like it.

Second trip: I finished my drink but I was hungry...

So, I went down. To send my cup and to look for something I can eat. Again. The same thing happened. Another debate within my head. Before that, I made up my mind that I wanted egg with fried pusu (anchovies) and rice with dark soy sauce! So, I opened the cupboard and there were Maggi Tom Yam flavoured Instant Noodles arranged nicely next to the rice pot.

"You know you want me more than rice, Ja..." said the Instant Noodles.

This time, I closed the cupboard and went straight to the fridge. Grab an egg and started making scrambled eggs. Fried my pusu... scooped some rice and pour everything on top of the rice and ate.

I didn't 'listen' to the instigation of the Tom Yam flavoured Instant Noodles. Haha! I was contented with my supper. Althought it was a little heavy.

I don't want to make myself sound crazy but I enjoy 'listening' to those kind of debates. It makes your imagination run wild and free. It is so much fun.

I think, I am beginning to not make any sense now. Need to try and sleep now. Haha!

On How Familiarity Can Be Annoying + Other Things

I can pretty much say that I hate some of my friends for being two-faced and it serves them right when they suffer because of their significant other. Thanks so much for talking bad about Maman. Perhaps they are just jealous. I know he did break my heart before but this Babe shouldn't talk bad about him every time we get engaged in a conversation about our boyfriends. Like her boyfriend is any better!

HAH! I've never heard of a guy who can't seem to make up his mind about anything. How do you expect that person to be the father of your kids or the leader of the house if he can't make ANY decisions? Never have I heard about a guy who can't see the difference between a break up and a time out! At least, Maman can make up his mind. Or make his decision.

This Babe is the kind of person who thinks the world revolves only around her anyway. At times, I get so annoyed with her statement. All because of the way she talks. She talks too highly about herself and lowly about other people. It's sickening, actually. She is also the type who doesn't look into the mirror. Owh, the other thing is when without a boyfriend, she tends to get DESPERATE and DEPRESSED. When she has one, she'll be all hanky panky with other guys. I don't understand this kind of person. They discourage you with your long time boyfriend and they don't realize that their own boyfriend needs to be watched. When we're depressed over our LONG TIME boyfriend, they'll be telling us TO FORGET HIM, ETC:- BUT WHEN, they're depressed over their SHORT TERM boyfriend, we encourage them to calm down, relax or hope someone better will come by or HOPE THE GUY REALIZE HIS MISTAKES! All positive encouragement. Really. I don't understand this sort of character. I don't know if it is out of jealousy or whatever but when a friend is depressed over a silly fight or petty little things in a relationship, you don't be the fuel for the fire. You have to be the water for the fire. Truly stupid.

God gave you a brain and yet you are not using your brain. Actually, Babe is not the only one. The other person is Brat. He seems like a good person on the surface but he tend to be annoying. That is all due to familiarity. Sometimes, the things he say may sound like a joke but it tend to get annoying. He, too, is like Babe. Too bad his fiancee of 6 years (?) is torturing him. Why does he advice me to let Maman go when his fiancee is doing worse things? Why won't he let her go for how she is torturing him? Ass! Don't advice me to let go of someone when YOU yourself cannot let go of the person hurting you most.

Bloody hell, I cannot get over that song! Haha! Actually, a few songs I cannot get over...

1. Scars by Papa Roach
   
2. Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit
   
3. Never Too Late by Three Days Grace
   
4. Autumns Monolouge by From Autumn to Ashes
   
5. Broken by Seether featuring Amy Lee
   
6. Epiphany by Staind

That is just the main few. Haha! But I love Scars the most. I am going to put in Epiphany by Staind. I love the video. It's got Billy Zane with hair in it! HAHA!

Hehe! I like this video. Anyway, it is late now. I think I should be off!

Desperate or What?

Men are better friends!

Women:
A wife was not at home for a whole night. So, the very next morning, she tells her husband that she stayed at her girlfriend's apartment over night. The husband calls 10 of her best girlfriend's and none of them confirm that.

Men:
A husband was not at home for a whole night. So he tells his wife the very next morning, that he stayed at his friend's apartment over night. So the wife calls 10 of his best friends: 5 of them confirm that he stayed at their apartments that night, and the other 5 are claiming that he still is there with them!

Moral of the story: Men are better friends

Although I have to admit that guys are good friends, but I don't think that girls aren't all that good. So, the person who added this statement into her profile, claims that all GIRLS are like that, huh? So, is she like that? So, is she trying to say that she is like the WOMAN in the story? From the looks of it, she despise being a girl. I am a girl. I admit, I have plenty of MALE friends but I NEVER or will NEVER CHEAT on my husband. NOT all girls are slutty like that woman in her story.

If she had prefered male company, she better not put in that story. It sounds too desperate. She makes it sould like ALL WOMAN INCLUDING HERSELF, are liars and sluts. Owh well. She is one, from what I hear about her.

Haha! Slut.

*rants*

I AM SO FED UP!! EVERYONE IS STILL BITCHING AND WHINING OVER THAT STUPID HIGH RISE IN PETROL! IS THERE NOTHING ELSE TO TALK ABOUT NOW? INSTEAD OF BITCHING AND WHINING ABOUT IT, WHY NOT JUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT? STUPID HEADS! AND TO THINK, THOSE COMPLAINING ARE THOSE WITH NO RESPONSIBILITIES LIKE HOUSE BILLS, CAR LOANS OR WHAT-SO-EVER. SOME OF THEM ARE STILL LIVING WITH THEIR PARENTS. SHUT THE FUCK UP, DUMBASS!

In Kuching, another STUPID thing happen! THERE WAS A FIGHT IN TOWN BECAUSE OF THE RISE OF PETROL! WHAT ARE YOU GUYS? DUMBFUCKS OR DUMBASSES? IF YOU ARE SO AFFECTED BY IT, GO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT RATHER THAN BITCHING AND WHINING ABOUT IT! STUPID!! I HATE IT. NOT ONLY THEY ARE ANGRY ABOUT THE PETROL BEING 78 CENTS MORE EXPENSIVE, THEY ARE SAYING THAT THE GOVERNMENT HAVE SOMETHING TO DO ABOUT IT. WHY MUST THEY BE POLITICAL ABOUT IT? WHY CAN'T THEY JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT IT AND NOT BE POLITICAL? NOBODY IS PERFECT. WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES. STUPID!

I AM DONE RANTING. PEOPLE ARE TOO STUPID TO REALISE. HOPE THEY GET SLAPPED ACROSS THEIR BLOODY FACES AND SHUT THE FUCK UP AND MOVE ON WITH LIFE. EVERYTHING IS REACHING ITS LIMITATIONS. WHY DON'T THEY REALISE THAT?

STUPID!

I BETTER BE DONE BEFORE OUR NARROW MINDED PEOPLE GET OFFENDED BY THIS OFFENDING POST!

Biggest Huha Since... when?

I am getting sick of this bitching and whining about PETROL. Everything is about the petrol now. I hate it. I mean, people are getting angry because of it. Why? They blame the government. I don't blame anyone but OURSELVES for not being NATURE FRIENDLY. WE are the cause of GLOBAL WARMING. We are also the cause of petrol being limited. So, don't blame the government if there is a high rise in petrol. It goes back to ourselves.

Our Malaysians are quite stupid because they think it is the government who wants more income. I disagree. It is a global thing. Not ONLY us suffering from high rising price in petrol. It is all around. People compare to Brunei and Arabia.

Hello, think about it this way, COMPARED to us, Brunei is ONE small country on its own. They still have petrol for themselves. So, that is a reason why they have cheap petrol. They still have plenty more for themselves. As for Arabia, they've got plenty of oiling stations (or whatever you may call them).

I AM SO SICK OF THIS BITCHING AND WHINING ABOUT PETROL NOW. Why can't we Malaysians make a big huha about GLOBAL WARMING also? Gosh.

Better stop now, before some NARROW MINDED BASTARD decide to sue me or something.

A Fallen Legend

I am currently at the Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA). Taking the advantage from my parents, Nuril and I are in the Golden Lounge. Guess who is in the lounge? Malaysian singer, Siti Nurhaliza and Datuk K. I am not going to comment more because if I do, with my dumb luck SOME ENTERTAINMENT LAWYER in Malaysia might sue me for talking about our local singers! That is the dumb part of everything in Malaysia.

MOVING ON... I strayed away from the title.

Today, Dad got angry with the people in Legend. It took the bellboy 30 minutes to come up to help us with the bags. Actually to go up to our room and help us with the bags. For a moment there, I didn't dare go near my Dad. It was scary. He called almost 3 times. Yet, I admired the bellboy for one thing, he didn't say anything. But the one thing I didn't like was his sulky face. Owh well. There goes Legend.

Legend used to be such a cozy place to go to. It was such a nice place to be at because the people was friendly. That is sad. I mean, a place where I was almost looking forward to staying in the Legend and after that whole week, I don't think I would want to dream on staying there ever again. No doubt, it is a nice looking place but... after that treatment, I think, it is best to think twice.

The Legend which was once majestic and 'noble' has now fallen. Into the bottomless pit.

Quite honestly, I am hoping that my Dad would get a room or suite at the Concorde. The people there are better at courtesy. I like the way they treat us. Especially my parents. Full of respect and full of smiles.

Besides the Concorde is brighter. The Legend is dark. HONESTLY. It looks like some cave somewhere only with electronic devices.

I think I should stop ranting about Legend hotel.

WOW! They just announced something 'unexpected'. They actually wished the Sarawakians "Happy Gawai". Owh well. At least we are acknowledged.

I will blog more later when I get home! I am running out of ideas. I have too many things to blog about!