CELCOM SUCKS!

A LOT OF HAPPY THINGS HAPPENING. EPIC QUOTES.

BUT NOW IS NOT THE TIME.

I NEED TO FUCKING RANT ABOUT CELCOM!

THEY CLAIM THEY ARE THE FASTEST BROADBAND NETWORK.

THEY LIED!

IT IS TAKING ME MORE THAN 15 MINUTES TO ATTACH ONE NINTH OF A FILE.

AND IT IS MY PRESENTATION FOR TOMORROW.

THE ONLY TIME I HAD TO DO MY PRESENTATION SLIDES WERE AFTER 6 PM AND IT SHOULD HAVE TAKEN ME 10 - 15 MINUTES TO DO IT.

BUT BECAUSE OF THIS BROADNARROWBAND LIAR, I SPENT NINE FUCKING HOURS AT IT!

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO EMAIL IT OUT SINCE 6 SOMETHING!

SHIT. I AM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW. IT IS WORST BECAUSE IT IS THAT TIME OF THE FUCKING MONTH!

ARGH!? IT'S BEEN 15 MINUTES AND I'VE MANAGED TO ATTACH 1/9 OF THE FUCKING FILE???

OH. MY. GOD! WHY IS CELCOM SUCH BUTTFACE LIAR?

LATELY, I HADN'T BEEN RESTING ENOUGH AND HADN'T BEEN GETTING ENOUGH SLEEP. I PLANNED TO SLEEP AT MIDNIGHT TONIGHT AND WAKE UP AT 10 TOMORROW BUT AT THE FUCKING RATE I AM FUCKING GOING, IT WON'T HAPPEN. I WILL END UP FEELING RESTLESS AND TIRED!

I FUCKING HATE CELCOM!

I LOST MY PATIENCE. I LOST MY NICENESS AND TOLERANCE. CELCOM SHOULD RECONSIDER. THEY SHOULD JUST PROMOTE THEMSELVES AS THE SLOWEST BROADBAND SERVICE IN MALAYSIA!

NINE FUCKING HOURS SINCE I'VE TRIED ATTACHING ONE MISERABLE FILE!

FUCK! CELCOM SHOULD JUST STOP THEIR BROADBAND SERVICES.

THE REASON WHY I AM TYPING IN CAPS IS BECAUSE I AM FEELING SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW! AND I AM FEELING CRANKY AND TIRED BUT I HAVE TO SEND THIS FUCKING FILE BEFORE 6.30 AM SO MY TEAMMATE COULD JUST EDIT IT FOR ME AND THEN PROCESS THE SLIDES.

I HATE CELCOM. OFFICIALLY.

The other day, I thought, as long as I have the Internet, I will be fine but then tonight when I needed the fast connection the most, it bail on me. FUCK!

Celcom is NOT STUDENT FRIENDLY. They RUIN students. Because of their SUCKY CONNECTION, students cannot do research OR handing their presentation/assignments ON TIME.

Lil Qeem

Something happened yesterday which got me thinking all night last night and early this morning. As much as I try to not hate my life... I am thankful. I sound like I am angsty at everything even at the Big Guy... but if wasn't for Him, I would be here. After what Aqeem told me yesterday, I think... I should learn to be more grateful.

"There is one thing I want you to learn... I want you to learn how to forgive yourself and others. I want you to get rid of the flames of hatred..."

For starters, I am the person who doesn't get another person get away with murder easily. I am one who doesn't forgive or forget easily. Considering there is a cousin of mine whom I've not forgiven for 7 years. That bad.

When Aqeem came along, I find myself thinking. Aqeem has the ability to forgive easily though he won't let people go that easily if someone were to do something to me. I noticed he is very protective over me. We've only been together for about a week and he is making me feel very secure.

He had been worried over me since Sunday. After knowing about that case. I love him for that but I fear he would take matters into his own hands. Aqeem and Della have been in contact about me and I know his friends:- Jay, Bob and Ijan Pau - are also concerned about me. Ijan have known me for 4 years.

The thought that lingers in my mind now is... For me being a very hot-tempered and impatient and unforgiving (UnIslamic) person, God gave me Aqeem, who is very cool and patient and forgiving. Aqeem taught me alot of things including about the dirty side of Kuching. Kuching is actually a warzone. There are unseen wars around and he is the one to show me all that.

People may have talked bad about him but then they don't know him. I know him. His close friends know him. People only see the surface but they don't see who he is on the inside the way we do...

What upsets us both now is, the envious beings around us.. that is all. Just don't get him angry.

The Thoughts of Revenge...

PSYCHE me!!

I think, I intend to make more and more people miserable rather than happy. Owh no. Not JUST ANYONE but SOME of those people who ACTUALLY didn't appreciate my existence and my sacrifices for them.

Despite how I covered up for them, this is how they repay me? :D Wow. Good for them.

They are just plain ungrateful.

Look, if you bit the chilli, good for you. I don't give a damn! :D I want you to. After all, I did my best to satisfy you guys and YOU GUYS were the ones who INSULTED me. So. It is only fair I feel this certain HATRED for you guys.

In some parts, I wished I had followed what he (and my parents, too) told me to do. Not to trust you guys too much. Damn. I was stubborn back then. I trusted you guys too much. Now, I am beginning to see the lies they've planted into the brains of others. Damn, I have so much hatred within my heart it is not funny.

I hate how things are going but I thank God I am facing it now rather than later. THANK GOD.

May they get more than how I've been feeling. It is okay. Go ahead. I don't care. I want you to feel how I feel. You are lucky, I am not ONE to leak out secrets. Haha! I am still with mercy. If THEY knew what you did to me.. HAH! That will be the end of you. BIG TIME. Seriously. I can't wait to tell those who deserve to know about it.

Revenge is sweeter than honey. Definitely sweeter than honey!

You know how people say, "one bad apple spoils the whole basket"? That is how things are going now. No more self-pity. It was my fault for TRUSTING you too much. Yet, it wasn't my fault if you were two-faced.

No wonder people never turned back to where they started. It is a great idea actually. Revenge, I mean. I will never go back. I had enough. I don't want to feel any pain provided by you. You tried to kill me. You won't have the chance to even hurt me. Apparently, you are not loved after all. I like that.

So. Instead of trying to kill me. Why not look into the mirror first before you could actually attempt to STAB ME IN THE BACK? :)

Don't blame me if I have black patches in my heart. There is a reason to it and YOU should know what the reason is. The reason is BEING INVOLVED when I was told NOT to get too involved.

Too bad~~! Because of ONE BAD APPLE, a whole basket gets ruin. Aww... pity! :) Thanks! For ruining my life. Thanks for making me REALISE who some people really are. THANKS for EVERY SINGLE MISERABLE MEMORY! I am happy to know the truth. I am glad I learnt the hard way. Most of all. I am glad to know that the flaw wasn't MINE ALONE.

Before you take advantage of other people, right? Don't back stab me. Nothing will be pretty later. Slowly and assurely, stories will come out. Eventually, I WILL FIND OUT more dirty truth about you guys. Politics here and there. Keep those who are most likely to back stab you. Throw away those who are loyal to you...

Final advice (I shall repeat), before you intend to backstab ME, realise your flaws first! :)

Man, I am beat. I am in a good mood and I need sleep! Good night! :D

It's A Beautiful Lie

It's a perfect denial. Such a beautiful lie to believe in. So beautiful it makes me.

Fine! Unexpected. Unheard of. UNCALLED FOR.

I don't get it. Why some people would believe the deceit of other people. I don't blame the person listening but I seriously blame myself or the person making up stories. Owh well.

If you are jealous. Just stand up and admit you are.

I am keeping an eye on YOU, Mr. Pervert. Don't act as if what is mine is yours. You have NO rights. Regardless of what, the money came from my pocket from my own afford and blood... Enough lies already about who really owns that thing... You tried to buy it from me 2 times cheaper than the usual price. Hoho. Not going to happen. Oh no. It is NOT going to happen.

My mistake? Living in my past. That happens when I dwell too deeply into the heart of darkness. I don't give a shit anymore. I have nothing to lose.

I pity a hell lot of people to believe in lies and deceit... I pity the person who dare not face the fact to fiction. I pity myself for hiding too much within myself... Most of all... I pity the person making up stories about someone they don't know... They don't know what they are in for. Hell... :D

Repent when you still could :)

Damn, mind the good mood. I feel like a devil. I feel like a demon. I feel. Evil within me. Good. Good.

YOU, MR. PERVERT, if you tried to destroy my life, don't worry. YOUR SECRETS are still save with me >:) BUT, it will eventually come out. What you DID to me and what you WANTED me to do. So. Don't think you can get away with murder. I can cause you your reputation and life. Think about it.

I am not as weak as I seem. I am more than you think. Be careful.