It was proven to me today that my instinct is quite reliable. It is amazing how my heart beat like a war drum can be a sign of something bad happening. For some kind of weird reason when I was around Hopoh today with Akim's cousin, I had a bad feeling. I was feeling nervous. I was feeling uneasy. I was worried... but I couldn't tell what was bothering my mind.
Only when I knew I couldn't stand it any longer, I had to text Akim and he called me. At first, I thought he accidentally dialed my number but with me taking precautions, I waited. Then he spoke on the phone calling for me. Before he called for me, I heard him talking to a Chinese guy, seriously. My first question was, "What's wrong?" and I didn't like the answer I got from him, "I got involved in an accident."
At first, I thought he was joking but with my damn instinct telling me it wasn't a joke, I told his cousin that he got involved in an accident. So, we went to meet him. I called Bob and Ijan and they said they would come by in 15 minutes or so.
When Kak Ina (Akim's cousin) and I arrived at the abandoned Esso petrol station at Petra Jaya, I didn't like what I saw:-
1) Akim's blood
2) broken rear window of a blue Kenari.
I went to him and hugged him. Only then my heart started beating like normal. Apparently, the car in front of him ramped on his brakes because of the person in front. Akim also had to make an emergency brake, and ended up hitting the Kenari. Thank God Akim had a fastened helmet on. The horror strike me when I saw the scratches on his helmet. What if he didn't have a helmet on?
I wanted so bad to cry but I had to be strong for Akim's sake. He was already in pain, I can tell but if I ended up crying my eyes out, he would get worried and it would cause him more pain.
I was relieved because he was okay. That mattered.
At the clinic, I waited for him and he said something which made me feel like hugging him and start crying (which I couldn't because I was trying hard to be strong)... He kept staring at me. "What if I had died?" he asked me. I was almost upset. "You are okay. THAT matters. Don't say things like that..." I told him firmly. "When it happened, I only thought of you..." I noticed tears in his eyes even before he said it. He cried while staring at me! All I could do was wipe his tears, kissed his forehead and smiled... Only then I found my voice to say (bravely), "As long as I am here with you and you are okay... that matters!"
Owh well. I am glad for one thing. Akim is okay and the other? I now know, I can trust my instinct. Also. I found someone I could have fun going out with. Kak Ina! :D
Only when I knew I couldn't stand it any longer, I had to text Akim and he called me. At first, I thought he accidentally dialed my number but with me taking precautions, I waited. Then he spoke on the phone calling for me. Before he called for me, I heard him talking to a Chinese guy, seriously. My first question was, "What's wrong?" and I didn't like the answer I got from him, "I got involved in an accident."
At first, I thought he was joking but with my damn instinct telling me it wasn't a joke, I told his cousin that he got involved in an accident. So, we went to meet him. I called Bob and Ijan and they said they would come by in 15 minutes or so.
When Kak Ina (Akim's cousin) and I arrived at the abandoned Esso petrol station at Petra Jaya, I didn't like what I saw:-
1) Akim's blood
2) broken rear window of a blue Kenari.
I went to him and hugged him. Only then my heart started beating like normal. Apparently, the car in front of him ramped on his brakes because of the person in front. Akim also had to make an emergency brake, and ended up hitting the Kenari. Thank God Akim had a fastened helmet on. The horror strike me when I saw the scratches on his helmet. What if he didn't have a helmet on?
I wanted so bad to cry but I had to be strong for Akim's sake. He was already in pain, I can tell but if I ended up crying my eyes out, he would get worried and it would cause him more pain.
I was relieved because he was okay. That mattered.
At the clinic, I waited for him and he said something which made me feel like hugging him and start crying (which I couldn't because I was trying hard to be strong)... He kept staring at me. "What if I had died?" he asked me. I was almost upset. "You are okay. THAT matters. Don't say things like that..." I told him firmly. "When it happened, I only thought of you..." I noticed tears in his eyes even before he said it. He cried while staring at me! All I could do was wipe his tears, kissed his forehead and smiled... Only then I found my voice to say (bravely), "As long as I am here with you and you are okay... that matters!"
Owh well. I am glad for one thing. Akim is okay and the other? I now know, I can trust my instinct. Also. I found someone I could have fun going out with. Kak Ina! :D
