I seriously don't know what is racing through my mind. I am feelings so bored and uncertain. I am feeling so confused. Most of all, all this hate is reborn.
My hate for someone I used to love.
I want to claim back all that was rightfully mine to begin with. I want him to suffer the way I did when I was with him. For 3 years, I have been playing the fool because of one bastard. Aqeem made me realised all this in 2 months. Fucking hell.
Now even Cyberspace has eyes. Wait. Eyes spying for that bastard! I don't care if I call him a bastard. It is because, he is! I recall him telling me to be careful of people... especially guys. Yeah, guys like him. He is a hypocrite. He is a bastard. There is nothing else I can say about it. He is nothing good. He is worse than anything lower than shit itself. He is not meant to be seen as a human. Why? He is such a hypocrite. He only utter lies. He sees other people's flaws but never his own. Mother fucker!
Now, I am NOT allowed to be with someone when he is happily married to a poor innocent fool! I hope she will realise what her husband is really capable of.
I hate him for the scars he left on my heart. I hate him for all the pain he caused me. I hate him for what he said about my friends and I hate him most of all the lies he planted into my head about everyone. He calls me a fool for trusting my friends. He is the bloody fool for having useless friends. As far as I am concerned, HE WAS THE MOST USELESS PERSON I HAD EVER KNOWN!
He killed my livelihood. Damn. I wished I had given my number to Aqeem 3 years ago! None of this would have happened. Aqeem would have been the guy to save my ass! Argh!
I think too much. It is sick. No wonder the high blood pressure. I think I should just shoot myself rather than letting my failing health try to kill me.
My hate for someone I used to love.
I want to claim back all that was rightfully mine to begin with. I want him to suffer the way I did when I was with him. For 3 years, I have been playing the fool because of one bastard. Aqeem made me realised all this in 2 months. Fucking hell.
Now even Cyberspace has eyes. Wait. Eyes spying for that bastard! I don't care if I call him a bastard. It is because, he is! I recall him telling me to be careful of people... especially guys. Yeah, guys like him. He is a hypocrite. He is a bastard. There is nothing else I can say about it. He is nothing good. He is worse than anything lower than shit itself. He is not meant to be seen as a human. Why? He is such a hypocrite. He only utter lies. He sees other people's flaws but never his own. Mother fucker!
Now, I am NOT allowed to be with someone when he is happily married to a poor innocent fool! I hope she will realise what her husband is really capable of.
I hate him for the scars he left on my heart. I hate him for all the pain he caused me. I hate him for what he said about my friends and I hate him most of all the lies he planted into my head about everyone. He calls me a fool for trusting my friends. He is the bloody fool for having useless friends. As far as I am concerned, HE WAS THE MOST USELESS PERSON I HAD EVER KNOWN!
He killed my livelihood. Damn. I wished I had given my number to Aqeem 3 years ago! None of this would have happened. Aqeem would have been the guy to save my ass! Argh!
I think too much. It is sick. No wonder the high blood pressure. I think I should just shoot myself rather than letting my failing health try to kill me.
