... yesterday, I realised that I still...
RUB IT OFF! GET THAT THOUGHT OFF MY MIND! DAMN IT! GET IT OUT FROM MY MIND!!!
There is no turning back. I started crying again as from last night. My chest hurts from all the confusion and the pain.
Did I once again fall for all those sweet words and lies? Did I once again realised that I am not as strong as I used to be?
OR...
Did I realise that I am meant to be where I am now? Within the darkness of my own heart? Am I meant to be in this position where I am not worthy of anybody? I wish I was given a sign. I wish... someone (not anyone in particular - since my expectations of a certain person is pretty much a zero is guaranteed) would save me now... *sighs*
I should stop thinking too much before I kill myself tonight. I hope somebody would make me laugh tonight...
RUB IT OFF! GET THAT THOUGHT OFF MY MIND! DAMN IT! GET IT OUT FROM MY MIND!!!
There is no turning back. I started crying again as from last night. My chest hurts from all the confusion and the pain.
Did I once again fall for all those sweet words and lies? Did I once again realised that I am not as strong as I used to be?
OR...
Did I realise that I am meant to be where I am now? Within the darkness of my own heart? Am I meant to be in this position where I am not worthy of anybody? I wish I was given a sign. I wish... someone (not anyone in particular - since my expectations of a certain person is pretty much a zero is guaranteed) would save me now... *sighs*
I should stop thinking too much before I kill myself tonight. I hope somebody would make me laugh tonight...
