Thoughts

I have to admit. There is no doubt that I have hatred within my heart but then when I think about M... it makes me angry and sad. No, I am not upset that we have nothing between us, I am sad because he was more willing to listen to people's instigation rather than to listen to me telling him and trying to guide him.

Owh well. Good thing it happened. If it didn't happen, I won't be where I am now. He knows we have nothing in between us. He told Adeeb. He told Adeeb I left him. Damn right but he gave Adeeb the wrong reason. He told Adeeb, he was sure I left him because of another guy.

*roars in laughter*

My dear, I left you because I couldn't stand being mistreated by you! I was abused emotionally, physically and verbally. I don't want all those anymore. Enough of those. I was so loyal when you were sleeping around. So? It is fair to myself that I leave you!

Owh well. Some people! Hehe!

Whatever it is, I am happier now. I know when with him, I tend to cry alot. Especially after his love affair with that girl. So, with him OUT of my life, I maybe happier but there is a fear. He seem to put Adeeb into the picture! STUPID! I would feel LESBIAN if Adeeb and I would enter a relationship besides, Adeeb is my best friend. There is no special feelings towards him.

And. Only Adeeb knows the person who've stolen my heart ;)