Guts. The one thing she lacked. She has the guts to tell people what is on her mind... especially when she know it has NOTHING to do with emotions OR feelings.
Why is it hard for her to admit to him that she has feelings for him? Is it the fear of what happened to her 8 years ago? Honestly. Yes. She was afraid such thing would repeat. She once told this dude she liked him and he dropped her like a hot potato. No, she wasn't desperate. She just fell in love... she is afraid to admit. Still. Within the darkness she watched him.
She knew that she was beating herself up just by keeping things to herself. She wasn't willing to lose him as a friend. She knew she was in love with him and that was the reason why she was happy. She sees his smile to make her feel happy. His smile had the power to make her happy. His voice and his words made her felt appreciated. She knew, she could see some happiness when she is near him...
She wants to tell him to his face but she went to the beach and wrote on the sand:-
Why is it hard for her to admit to him that she has feelings for him? Is it the fear of what happened to her 8 years ago? Honestly. Yes. She was afraid such thing would repeat. She once told this dude she liked him and he dropped her like a hot potato. No, she wasn't desperate. She just fell in love... she is afraid to admit. Still. Within the darkness she watched him.
She knew that she was beating herself up just by keeping things to herself. She wasn't willing to lose him as a friend. She knew she was in love with him and that was the reason why she was happy. She sees his smile to make her feel happy. His smile had the power to make her happy. His voice and his words made her felt appreciated. She knew, she could see some happiness when she is near him...
She wants to tell him to his face but she went to the beach and wrote on the sand:-
(name) I like you.
She was afraid of rejection. She was afraid she wasn't what he had in mind. Rather. She kept it to herself. She was willing to beat herself up that way... She wishes though, that he would know... how she had fallen in love with him and how all those feelings developed slowly.
She had a crush on him before this. It was nothing but a mere innocent crush. Until she got to know him. Until she realised that he was the reason why she started laughing and started smiling again. Unconsciously, fate took her by surprised. She said she won't fall in love again after a major heart break but. It was him. He changed it all. He was the reason why she believed chances were given to her to feel appreciated.
She wanted him to be there for her no matter what the circumstances were. She wanted him to make her laugh and smile, because. Only he had the power to do so. She is thankful she met him. She now believes that it was fate that made her meet him. It was her choice to befriend him. Yet, to fall in love with him was way beyond her control...
Jasima Junaidi 'o8
She had a crush on him before this. It was nothing but a mere innocent crush. Until she got to know him. Until she realised that he was the reason why she started laughing and started smiling again. Unconsciously, fate took her by surprised. She said she won't fall in love again after a major heart break but. It was him. He changed it all. He was the reason why she believed chances were given to her to feel appreciated.
She wanted him to be there for her no matter what the circumstances were. She wanted him to make her laugh and smile, because. Only he had the power to do so. She is thankful she met him. She now believes that it was fate that made her meet him. It was her choice to befriend him. Yet, to fall in love with him was way beyond her control...
Jasima Junaidi 'o8
