Thursday, August 28, 2008

Hurt

I hate to feel hurt. It makes me feel so down. Plus with my fever. I think. Things got worse. Today alone...

I walked into two chairs in one morning. Nearly got involved in an accident. Walked into someone. Can't differentiate what is A and B.

That shows how bad my fever was today. I woke up feeling as if I was on a stove or something. My head was empty and like said, my brain was snoozing most of the time. I was also getting angry most of the time.

Considering there were so many stupid people driving on the road. If they are not driving slow on the fast lane, they are tailgating you on the slow lane.

What doest the title have to do with anything? I am feeling hurt because I hurt someone. I think I did... and I fear I might lose that someone's friendship. I hate it when I start falling hard for someone. Especially it is someone who've given me back what I wanted most... my smile... and my laughter. Meeting that person made me happy. It made my heart sing a happy tune.

I don't want him to think that because of him I let M go. I had been suffering for a year plus now. I just want to give up. I gave up until one day. I dreamt. About that someone who gave me back my smile... the person responsible for my happy song.

Yet... what hurts me now is, my fear that that someone, might not even want to talk to me anymore... So... I shall continue down my lonely path...