There is another reason why I decided to run away to KL to study. I never really told anyone about this but this will be a revelation.
Before I met Akim, I had this one bastard in my life. Owh, how my blood boils thinking about him and remembering his fucking name. I hate him to the core.
It is ironic, how I used to love him but when I think about it, I am, like how Jeen Pei say about me, OPTIMISTIC. I can be ANNOYINGLY optimistic. Ask my girls, they will tell you how nice I can get but when I become NOT NICE, then, I could make the whole world turn its back against you.
I was foolish enough to believe that bastard. It's been 2 years since the incident, I still wish I could have cut off his dick back then. I had THOUSAND OF CHANCES, which I didn't use because I believe that asshole can change.
He never did.
You'd think his mother was a good person to turn to. I proved myself wrong. She was the BIGGEST HYPOCRITE I HAVE EVER MET!
Hm. I think it is best I forget all those. I HATE them so much, I am often tempted to go to Sukma just to burn their house. Hence, this being the reason why I decided to run away from Kuching. I sincerely hope ONE day, someone come and tell me, "Ja, ***** and his family died in a fire."
First thing I will tell them is, "Serve them right!" That is what you deserve for DESTROYING MY TRUST AND WRECKING MY HEART!
That is the dark side of my heart. Not many people know me well enough (except my best friends, Della, Akim and Bob) When I take hatred personally, I take it seriously.
The best metaphorical object for me will be : FIRE.
Why?
When it is small, fire can be somewhat of a friend for us, to keep us warm and to help us cook food:- and it will be easy to put out. When it grows overwhelmingly big, it gets uncontrollable, it becomes the enemy and it will take a very long time to put the fire out.
I am not threatening anyone but I am just revealing the real me.
When I think about it. Hahaha. It is funny how some people say they hate hypocrites but at some extend, we are all hypocrites.
So... Choose your words wisely.
